just when i thought...

...i was starting to be able to knit, i tried to purl. and i'm back to the retarded monkey stance, hunched over, hands cramping awkwardly over the tangle of yarn and the needles. and my beautiful yarn splits easily, especially when i'm knitting WAY too tight, adding to my frustration. i want to be good at this now, now, NOW! this is supposed to be relaxing, isn't it?