beautifully different

dec. 8 - beautifully different:  think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you’ll find they’re what make you beautiful.

a long time ago, i wrote about the freckles that are only on one side of my face, so i won't go into that again, tho' i do think it's something that makes me different. whether it's beautiful or not is open to debate, but it does seem to be quite unique.

i've wracked my brain for the other ways in which i'm different...i think we all, on the inside of ourselves, find ourselves to be unique, our view of the world different than others, but in our thinking that, we're really the same, aren't we? my quirky views of the world...that eventually you won't have to follow the no-passing markings on the road because you'll be experienced enough to just KNOW whether someone is coming, or my childhood belief that the local newscasters on television could see me...those are different. but i don't really believe those things anymore.

i think i exude a kind of energy that lights people up. some people. for others, it bothers them. greatly. and they want to shut it down or simply make it go away. and what's interesting is that i don't have any control of it - i can't turn it off or on, it's just there, beaming out of me, hitting people in a positive or a negative way, quite beyond my control. and it's something that i both get to enjoy immensely and which hurts me at times almost beyond my comprehension. it's such an ephemeral thing - it's hard to describe and control. it's just there. a kind of life force. making me a bee charmer to some and a stinging bee to others. part of what makes me beautifully different and uniquely me.

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